♥ Monday, November 20, 2006, 11:57 PM ♥
i just hope dhat ue ppl wiiu be more understanding for me at times .its just lyk ; ii have been brought back to few months ago . whr ii faced alort of things . all at once . he suddenly smsed me for few days . and seems lyk everything iish back to normal . budd i tel myself ; jush friends . been caring as ii always do . tish sentence really make me tinks alort . im getting more and more fustrated in things now . and friendship makes me really wanted to jush give up everything . i'll really wan to jush hide frm all tish . take me to a place of no trouble . i cant be a good psl . ii do nth daht makes ue believe ii can brought them alive . ii really cant . ii have no confidence . all of dhe sudden ; ii become a much more higher range dden others . ii really feel disgrace of myself . i did nth . ue been havin a really high expectaion on me . bud ; ii tink ii ddun deserve it at all . really ii ddun . i'll noe i'll dissapoint ue next time . i reall ddun wish to see uer dissapointed face . when ue called me dhat day ; ii rejected uer offers . and ii can hear frm uer voice ue really dissapointed . uer dissapointed voice really pull me down . apart frm uer voices ; ii couldn't imagine how ii wiiu feel when ii see uer dissapointed face . i really ddun wan to see it .
friendship . i'll been facng tis alort alort alort times . budd , ii stiiu noe , primary school friends are jush friends dhat wiiu never be apart dhat easily . ii cherish them more . secondary school friends was more friendlier and more fun . budd ; friends among each of us wiiu have quarelles . now ; ii noe wad really have happened . ii know mye attitude can be sucks . bud , attitude is dhe things dhat cant be changed dhat easily yarh . haish . i'll try to get into ue all . budd ii always seems to be left out . or mayb ; ii ddun belong to thr . or ii belongs to sum whr elses . or mayb ; after all tish unhappy things among ue all ; i'll go back to whr ii surpose to be barh .parents jush ddun understand wad children wants or need .everytime jush have to scold . and always siding her . i really did nth wrong at all . scold me lyk hell . and scold me for everything . those past oso brought in and scold me . wth . haish . ii always cried in mye room and they jush ddun noe how a child wiiu feel . haish .ii hope i never been here . i hope ii never been leepeining .
ii hope i never been in psl .
ii hope ii never been in esss . i hope i never in tish family . i hope i nevr meet him bfer . and i hope i never came to tish world .
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